Know Doubt

We demand rigidly defined areas of doubt and uncertainty. Douglas Adams

These humorous words from Hitchiker’s Guide to the Galaxy some of the very few you will read that cast doubt as a positive.

Doubt is mostly viewed as a negative trait or as even as the opposite of faith. We think this way largely because we imagine doubt and faith in still life, or rigidly defined – devoid of motion. Such attempts at crystallization lose sight of the inner dynamics and play when we struggle with doubt. When we doubt, a number of forces arise within us: curiosity, fear, urgency, to name only a few. 

These forces compel us to know – to experience – and to do so we act. We move. We seek answers. We position ourselves to see with our own eyes and hear with our own ears.

Doubt drives the struggle – without it we would never see potentiality give birth to actuality. This is precisely why God does not present himself as an irrefutable fact. He wants us to struggle. He wants us to be curious and to move toward Him. He wants us to pursue him until, like the moth whose new wings are strengthened by its endeavor to escape the cocoon, we emerge transformed into a new creation that exchanges the rigidity of an earthbound life for the boundless skies.

Today we will rediscover the nature and purpose of doubt – and how to allow it to serve as a positive force for transformation.

Source Scripture

Matthew 11:1-6Luke 7:18-23

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Welcome Back to Wonder

I’m very concerned that our society is much more interested with information than wonder. Fred Rogers

We have unwittingly exchanged the active experience of being alive in the present for living in a dank library filled with atomized facts that we read not with just our eyes, but with our whole physical bodies. We willingly plug ourselves into a matrix of technology and information that, given the right combination, can summon fleeting fulfillment of our selfish desires: popularity, prosperity, pleasure, and power.

These four pillars serve as the supports that bear the table of lifeless and soul-less reductionism where we spend our lives attempting to put together the one-million piece puzzle from the box of pieces that, even if accomplished, would result only in a flattened and ghoulishly carved representation of the real world that awaits us in plain sight – if only we would just turn around, leave the puzzle behind, and embark on a journey of adventure, purpose, and meaning.

We live in blueprints rather than homes. We exchange the territory for the map and the symphony for the sheet music, both of which can be neatly tucked into our day planners. We have abandoned the rapture of a starry night for a lifeless book where the front cover has faded under the white-washed sky of light pollution, the back cover boasts of the data contained within, and the pages between them offer not stories, but columns and charts, distances and densities, enormity and expansion. 

We have stripped sacred symbols of their resonance and reduced them to tokens and trinkets to buy, sell, or appropriate for monetary gain. Two-handed scrolls enchant no longer, now lost to mindless single-handed scrolling. Pythagoras marveled at meaning in mathematics, envisioning the number one as the symbol for unity and ten for perfection. He found astonishing connections between music and ratio. But now hear the name Pythagoras and all we can muster is a-squared plus b-squared = c-squared as a formula to conquer algebra tests and solve occasional problems. Mathematics are now mere means to ends.

We have wandered from wonder, only to wonder why we wander.

Today, we delve deeply into the hope that this wretched wasteland in which we wander is not our home – the hope that we may yet wake up and rise up and return to reverence, recapturing rapture and seizing the sublime.

Welcome back to wonder.

Source Scripture

Luke 7:11-17

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The Ground of Being

Once we are anchored in our essential being, we become aware that a core that nothing can destroy exists in us. From this we gain stability and permanence. We acquire a composure that is independent of the world, a clear sense of inner direction, and above all, a self-confidence that is independent of the world’s praise or blame. The personal significance of ‘being center’ is that we can so live in the midst of all the ups and downs of life that we receive strength, purpose and direction from essential being. Imperturbable and at peace, we ceaselessly pursue our inner destiny and so manifest Divine Being in this life in the world. Karlfried Graf Durkheim

Our quest for peace – contentment, rest, fulfillment – is, paradoxically, most often filled with frustration, anger, exhaustion, and even rage. Make more money, acquire necessary things, secure fulfilling relationships, and fulfill sensual desires.

Over and over again, great obstacles present themselves. Storms arise. Obstacles roll over us. People thwart us. Disasters destroy all that we have worked for and take away those that we love.

And when we find ourselves naked and afraid – when all is lost except loss itself – where do we go? What do we do?

We could, like the great phoenix, resolve to rise from the ashes and rebuild our lives by starting over and repeating our quest.

Or, perhaps we could reconsider the quest itself and reexamine what it is we seek.

If what we seek is peace, which is an inward state of being – a mode of consciousness – then why do we assume at the outset that our quest must be the triumphal conquest of external circumstance?

If what we truly desire is an inward oasis, then our quest must be an inner odyssey.

The journey to fulfillment lies wholly within. And the deeper we go, the more this truth becomes clear to us, until in our spirit we arrive at the very ground of our being and discover there that the truth really does set you free.

Source Scripture

Matthew 7:24-27Luke 6:47-49

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The Divine Path of Desire

God wants you to move through this day with a quiet heart, an inward assurance that He is in control, a peaceful certainty that your life is in His hands, a deep trust in His plan and purposes, and a thankful disposition, toward all that He allows. He wants you to put your faith in Him, not in a timetable. He wants you to wait on Him and wait for Him. In His perfect way He will put everything  together, see to every detail… arrange every circumstance… and order every step to bring to pass what He has for you. Roy Lessin

Desire is a divine gift that stirs the soul, prompting us to pursue its fulfillment. Yet we often corrupt divine desire by conflation and control.

We conflate love with lust, which drives us to see the other as a utilitarian object to fulfill lustful desire rather than a divine being with which to seek meaningful presence. We conflate joy with happiness, and pursue fleeting pleasures. We conflate peace with the absence of annoyance and play never ending whack-a-mole with the slightest intrusion.

Conflation leads to control. Lust requires control, reducing sex to on-demand video, one-night stands, rape, pedophilia, and worse. Happiness demands that we control the trinkets kept within our reach so that we may summon them at will. Removing annoyances instead of seeking shalom forces us to use force to silence unwanted voices.

To pursue desire by conflation, control, or the commingled concoction of both inevitably leads to anxiety, frustration, and the worship of money as the wellspring of control.

We suffer anxiety over our limited control and abilities to obtain what we want. Frustration strikes when we fail, but ultimately even when we supposedly succeed as our conflated counterparts don’t culminate in contentment. And the love of money is inescapable. Money is control, mathematically summoned at will.

The path of conflation and control to fulfill desire will never bring satisfaction – it is a dead-end road that, despite our best efforts, cannot be turned into a luxurious culdesac of consummation.

The divine path of desire is paved with trust in the Divine God of the Universe who created our desires and designed us to seek Him for their fulfillment. Trust removes the need for control and eliminates the habit of conflation, leaving us in a state of blissful shalom.

This underlying theme pervades our last six episodes, though without in-depth contemplation we will engage today. Today, we see the beauty of Jesus’ words through a review of of the thread that weaves through his last six otherwise isolated proverbs in his Sermon on the Mount.

Today, we see the beauty of trust as the path to fulfilling our desires.

Source Scripture

Matthew 6:24Luke 16:13-15 
Matthew 6:25-34Luke 12:22-32
Matthew 7:1-5Luke 6:37-42
Matthew 7:6
Matthew 7:7-11Luke 11:9-13
Matthew 7:12Luke 6:31

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Cross Beam

People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own soul. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious. Carl Jung

One of the most harmful and yet least examined impulses of human nature is that of judgement. In silent milliseconds, we can observe a fellow human being and decide if he is worthy or unworthy, right or wrong, good or bad.

And with that judgement, just as quietly but more deadly, we condemn. We From our judge’s chair while draped in our robes of black, we pass one of the many sentences available to us in our play book. 

Rather than turn the other cheek, we turn our back. Rather than go the extra mile, we force them to. We hurl insults. We raise our hands in obscene gestures. We steal back what is supposedly ours. We open the floodgates of rage into our hearts and with our minds we justify the mental, verbal, emotional, and physical abuse that we heap on our accused.

And as we pass judgement and condemnation on the other, we silently and often unknowingly hold up our get-out-of-jail-free card – the one we earned by being right, righteous, good, better. We choose to be our own judge, and we always find ourselves innocent.

At stake here is not who is right and who is wrong. What is at stake is you – your state of being. The desire to set the world right is a God-given desire implanted in us. It is etched in the imago dei of our souls. 

But the fulfillment of that holy desire does not and cannot come from judgement. Judgement arises from egoistic pride, arrogance, entitlement, and a withering connection to the sacred. 

It is time to bring the oft-overlooked act of judgement into the light and let it be judged for what it is. It is time to acknowledge and take the beam out of our own eye. The good news is that we have a Judge who is willing to both forgive us and to teach us his way of forgiveness – freeing us to walk this earth in peace and love.

To err is human, to forgive divine.

Source Scripture

Matthew 7:1-5Luke 6:37-42

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Sight Unseen

The old debate between reason and revelation, reason and belief, continues up to the present day without either side suspecting that what is at issue is the activation within the being of man of an entirely new faculty of attention. Jacob Needleman

As the science vs. faith battle wages to determine who is right and what is real, what each can miss in this philosophical tournament is the opportunity to lift up their eyes and see beyond the coliseum that hosts it – and walk outside, leaving the weapons and armor of the game behind and embracing the search for being.

Science creates rules that govern and limit how we see. Faith, a term which once meant something much more, finds itself reduced by modern Western thought to nothing more than another set of rules, creeds, and systematic theology – a flattened version of what it really is.

Faith, in its essence, is not a set of rules. Faith is the confidence in what we hope for and the assurance of what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1

Faith is knowing that the deepest, truest desires within us are real. This means that our longing for love, transcendence, meaning, purpose,  acceptance, and connection to the divine is not an unrealistic outlook. Faith gives us confidence that these desires are the most genuine thing about us.

And faith is the assurance that these longings, which cannot be seen with the eyes of objective consciousness, can be trusted to lead us to their fulfillment. And they can be trusted precisely because the divine, transcendent God who created us planted these inherent desires within us. He designed us with these invisible desires to seek Him so that he can fulfill them all in communion with him.  

And all we have to do is to see this truth in our spirit, accepting it by faith.

Without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him. Hebrews 11:6

Source Scripture

Matthew 6:1

Matthew 6:2-4

Matthew 6:5-15Luke 11:1-4

Matthew 6:16-18

Matthew 6:19-21Luke 12:33-34

Matthew 6:22-23Luke 11:33-36

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The Spirit of the Law

To have faith in Christ means, of course, trying to do all that He says. There would be no sense in saying you trusted a person if you would not take his advice. Thus if you have really handed yourself over to Him, it must follow that you are trying to obey Him. But trying in a new way, a less worried way. Not doing these things in order to be saved, but because He has begun to save you already. Not hoping to get to Heaven as a reward for your actions, but inevitably wanting to act in a certain way because a first faint gleam of Heaven is already inside you. C.S. Lewis

Is it a sin to….. fill in the blank. Yes, or no!! 

The formulation of such questions and the hands-on-hips scrutiny that awaits their answers disclose an underlying, dualistic paradigm that we might call religious meritocracy

Do the right thing – earn your way to heaven. If, then. Yes, no. 

Religious meritocracy produces, as its logical conclusion, rigid boundaries with which to declare judgement, excluding those on the outside and self-righteously promoting those on the inside to elevated status. Everything becomes about the boundaries, where all troops are amassed. And yet, in so doing, the interior state becomes entirely devoid of the life with which the boundaries were intended to cradle.

It’s easy to fall prey to this paradigm if you take only a cursory glance at sacred Scripture, particularly the Old Testament. The law given to Moses and the message preached by prophets often center on those deeds that, if committed, warrant punishment. Do not murder. Do not commit adultery. Do not steal.  Or else.

And yet, as we will see in today’s episode, the sacred rarely emerges from cursory glances, just as the breathtaking experiences of vacation in a beautiful country does not come by walking its borders heal-to-toe all the way around and then returning home.

Today, we cross the threshold of the borders outlined by the letter of the law and go deep into the interior – to the breathtaking Spirit of the Law – that brings life and love to otherwise dead religion.

Source Scripture

Matthew 5:17-20

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Read Romans 8-13. Compare Paul’s explanation of what it means to live by the Spirit and his religious establishment’s failed attempts to find the kingdom of heaven because of their focus on the letter of the law.

Read Luke 24:13-35. Note the reaction of the two men walking back to Emmaus on the Sunday following the crucifixion when a stranger explains everything from the law and the prophets.

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A puritan is a person who pours righteous indignation into the wrong things.– G.K. Chesterton

The Hound of Heaven

The left hemisphere [of the brain] prefers the impersonal to the personal, and that tendency would in any case be instantiated in the fabric of a technologically driven and bureaucratically administered society. The impersonal would come to replace the personal. There would be a focus on material things at the expense of the living. Social cohesion, and the bonds between person and person, and just as importantly between person and place, the context in which each person belongs, would be neglected, perhaps actively disrupted, as both inconvenient and incomprehensible to the left hemisphere acting on its own. There would be a depersonalisation of the relationships between members of society, and in society’s relationship with its members. Exploitation rather than co-operation would be, explicitly or not, the default relationship between human individuals, and between humanity and the rest of the world. Resentment would lead to an emphasis on uniformity and equality, not as just one desirable to be balanced with others, but as the ultimate desirable, transcending all others. As a result individualities would be ironed out and identification would be by categories: socioeconomic groups, races, sexes, and so on, which would also feel themselves to be implicitly or explicitly in competition with, resentful of, one another. Paranoia and lack of trust would come to be the pervading stance within society both between individuals, and between such groups, and would be the stance of government towards its people. Ian McGilchrist

It is in our nature to be connected with each other. Interwoven. Interdependent. Interlocked in love and community.

And yet this is not our reality. Instead, we are alienated. Separated. Resentful. Mistrustful. In fear and paranoia, we depersonalize. Criticize. Exploit. Avoid.

In this increasingly diseased state, lacking the restorative powers of wholesome social community, the suffering caused by our isolation intensifies – due to our isolation.

It’s time to reverse the trend. To heal the wounds. To cure the disease.

Today, in our look back at the previous six episodes, we will surface their underlying theme of creating community and reversing the curse of isolation and the catastrophic toll it has taken from on of us.

Source Scripture

Matthew 5:7

Matthew 5:8

Matthew 5:9

Matthew 5:10-12Luke 6:22-23,26

Matthew 5:13Mark 9:49-50Luke 14:34-35

Matthew 5:14-16Mark 4:21Luke 8:1611:33

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Let There Be Light

Many of the neuroses that plague the lives of modern humans, from anxiety to depression, are often fed, if not caused, by a confined, claustrophobic, and ultimately unsubstantiated interpretation of consensus reality: that is, by a deprived myth derived from grammatical rules. The depressed person sees no meaning in life largely because the small box of her linguistic thinking limits her view of what life is. Bernardo Kastrup

Words. Logic. Reason. Argument. Language is the bedrock on which most of us form and defend our framework of belief – the over-arching narrative that governs how we make sense of the world around us.

If something cannot be expressed in words, we think, then it cannot be true. How could it be?

And yet, are not the greatest experiences of our lives those in which we find ourselves… Speechless? When someone we know faces profound grief and loss, do we attempt to console them with logic? Would you prefer a detailed map and well-worded paragraph describing the islands of Hawaii over a personal visit?

Logic, reason, and the scientific method can go only so far in their attempts to penetrate the depths of the human soul. To limit ourselves to only what they offer is to live in the shadows of the fullness of reality. In a growing darkness. Where we crawl about, wondering why we cannot seem to see and experience the true depths of who we are and who we are meant to be. 

What, then, can penetrate this darkness if not reason?

The divine light of truth, demonstrated in the raw, authentic, spiritual form of a narrative. 

Words. Logic. Reason. Argument. Language is the bedrock on which most of us form and defend our framework of belief – the over-arching narrative that governs how we make sense of the world around us.

If something cannot be expressed in words, we think, then it cannot be true. How could it be?

And yet, are not the greatest experiences of our lives those in which we find ourselves… Speechless? When someone we know faces profound grief and loss, do we attempt to console them with logic? Would you prefer a detailed map and well-worded paragraph describing the islands of Hawaii over a personal visit?

Logic, reason, and the scientific method can go only so far in their attempts to penetrate the depths of the human soul. To limit ourselves to only what they offer is to live in the shadows of the fullness of reality. In a growing darkness. Where we crawl about, wondering why we cannot seem to see and experience the true depths of who we are and who we are meant to be. 

What, then, can penetrate this darkness if not reason?

The divine light of truth, demonstrated in the raw, authentic, spiritual form of a narrative. 

Source Scripture

Matthew 5:14-16Mark 4:21Luke 8:1611:33

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Eternal Essence

It is like the famous Irishman who found that a certain kind of stove reduced his fuel bill by half and thence concluded that two stoves of the same kind would enable him to warm his house with no fuel at all. It is the magician’s bargain: give up our soul, get power in return. But once our souls, that is, our selves, have been given up, the power thus conferred will not belong to us. We shall in fact be the slaves and puppets of that to which we have given our souls. – C.S. Lewis, The Abolition of Man

Essence. This word connotes the wellspring of being – our nature. Often in an attempt to describe such a concept we turn to words like…

Father. The essence of a father is that he has children that he loves, provides for, protects, guides. If we see someone who claims to be a father violating that essence through abuse or abandonment, we feel natural tension. That tension is the distance between what we believe to be the essence of fatherhood and the broken example now before us.

Husband, mother, policeman, priest – all of these possess an inherent essence that, when lost, fill us with disappointment. But when fulfilled, as in an example where a father gives his life to save one of his children, we feel an overwhelming sense of awe.

The alignment between essence and reality matters.

Whether we realize it or not, our essence is divine. Our wellspring is the heart. The soul.  And when we choose to live in alignment with our essence, awe permeates our reality. But when we pollute or dilute our essence to pursue the non-essential, we break faith with the divine and life loses its meaning – for us and for those who know us.

So what word best describes our divine nature? Salt.

We are the salt of the earth…